Its night! night of 2nd january 2007. two days have passed and the new year is not that new now.
but m feeling new year brought a lot of new things in my life right now, in my own words i got a new camera.
lol

wrote a nice piece of shit last night when i was drunk. reading it again made me laugh, and i realised how bad i m at writing things.when i got up today i was able 2 remember everything, wat all i did when i was high, i always behave decently when i m drunk , i guess i think a lot even when i m drunk and always try to control myself. this thing hardly makes any sense

well i was writing how i got my new camera, i read my yesterday shit again today, and reread the lyrics which i had put down in the end. life is really not bad, till now i always thot its all bout enjoying it, and thats one thing i always tried to figure out how i can enjoy. I always tried changing the way i wanted 2 react, always thinking how i should react, to be the perfect one, changing myself, pretending what i m not to ppl just for fun sometimes, for some other crappy reasons sometimes. I JUST TRIED BEING TOO PERFECT. i know this phase has not ended, m still the same but now i can think in some other direction, thinking how 2 be happy, instead of this all pretending stuff.

well i get bored of one topic easily. no more this boring thing.

let me think bout my past one year.

freshers party,fun in GWALIOR MELA, making lots of new frendz, sultangarh trip, pretending, finding a new life in second sem, infotsav, lakshdweep trip, being depressed, juniors, their ragging, their freshers, missing something in life but not knowing wat it is, loosing a friend, spending complete two week without talking to anybody at all in a room, having that friend back in ur life, one strange break up, my complete devotion to like cigarettes somehow but failing it, bad grades in first semester, and most of the times everything reminding me of something of year 2005, in simple words missing time of year 2005 a lot, and learning lots of new stuff, getting new cameras, falling in love with my hostel life,a wonderful accident by accent car-njoying every bit of it, missing somebody, sometimes missing the fact that i dont miss that person now, gettin twenty year old..

Hmm last year was good, i kinda miss some of its time a lot, i know soon i will forget it all but there will be something left in my heart, some of the memories of this year for always atleast right now i think so ..


m feeling like to keep writing things but later..