Sound of Silence
A tear in an eye can speak more than a thousand words.
Oct 19, 2016
Stay
Oct 13, 2013
Entropy of the universe
Jun 16, 2013
Memories
Mar 25, 2012
Black
She rose up after keeping the violet orchids on his grave. She had been bringing these flowers to her brother’s grave for 18 years now.
They were playing at their farmhouse. He was 11 years old and she was 9. Their mother had asked them not to go near the well, but they anyway did. When they reached the well, she looked at those violet orchids and exclaimed “Beautiful!” Somewhere from in between the bricks deep down in the well, an orchid plant had popped out, and there were bunch of beautiful flowers blooming on the plant.
She told her brother she wanted those flowers, ready to do anything for his little sister, he tried reaching for the flowers, but alas, they were far away from his reach, he bent a little further to get a grasp of them, he thought a little more, and he could do it.
All of a sudden, the old well’s bricks gave away, the wall broke and she saw him screaming and falling in the well.
When the fire brigade truck came, and his body was taken out, he was found to be holding violet orchids.
Green
“Starting today,” she said, bustling around the kitchen, “this household is going green. There’s no need to pollute the environment more than we already do, and there are plenty of easy ways to reduce our carbon footprint, which we really should be doing. We’re downgrading our car to something with fewer emissions, and I’m going to dig a compost pit in the yard, and hopefully we can grow some of our own vegetables. I need you to be with me on this, okay?” She finally paused for breath, exhausted, arms laden with garbage bags, rubber gloves, and flowerpots. “Sure, love,” he replied looking down at his busy hands. “Do whatever you want, as long as I can go green my way too.” Grinning, he put the freshly rolled joint to his lips, lit up, inhaled.
Blue
Stare long enough at that point where the sea meets the sky, and very soon everything else will begin to vanish. It’s not even a perceivable line, really, more like a soft blending of turquoise water into a blindingly azure sky, as if a giant hand had dragged a wet brush along the seam.
Open waters can be suffocating sometimes with the weight of their expanse, the knowledge that this resort island, well furnished as it is, is the only thing in the sea for miles around. The water then seems solid, almost, like glass frozen in a ripple, paralysing. But then you step down off the deck of your cottage-on-stilts, cleaving the ocean first with your toe, then plunging your leg in, and then pushing out away from the steps, letting the salty water buoy your whole body as you lie back and float away, wherever the blue takes you.
Orange
There is orange peel in the bin, her lips drip with juice and her fingers smell of citrus. It will perfume our nights, our bed, my head. Many days later, i will buy oranges and think of her. Eating an orange is an intimate, sensuous process. Impale the bottom of the orange with a finger, regard it, pull back the skin. Separate the fruit into its segments, and then eat, feeling the juice burst over your tongue as your teeth bite down on it. Without warning, you are reminded of the tang of her lips and the swerve of her hips, and how her fingers smelled as they fluttered around my lashes. Elizabethans made pomades of dried oranges and cloves, did you know? They hung them at their belt.
One day, she will leave, and I’ll never eat an orange again. In some faraway city, she will be walking on a citrus-scented cloud.
Indigo
“What a beautiful colour!” she exclaims, running her fingers over the sari laid out to display on her lap. “Pure silk, madam”, says the shop owner. “Indigo dye. Natural dye, very rare. Suits your skin colour, madam. Very nice.” “How much?” The inevitable back-and-forth begins, numbers shoot out into the air like bullets. The process is slower than usual; she didn't really want the sari, but was buying it anyway, he is not much bothered about this sale and just wants to get home and eat. “Done,” he says, wrapping up the garment. “Enjoy, good night, come again.” She waves cheerfully as she steps out into the night, arms loaded with shopping.
78 miles away, in a town she’s never heard of, a farmer mourns for yet another field rendered infertile by an accursed crop of indigo he’s labour-bound to grow.
Red
It’s the smallest things that trigger it. Things people say, mostly. Little statements. Things they think are funny. But they aren’t. They really, really aren’t. They jab at me and I can almost see the words hurtling towards me, slicing into my skin. Then the haze descends, red over my eyes like a mist rolling over the hills, and my head begins to ache like it will burst, and my hands move of their own accord and I know not what happens to me. I sense motion. And sound, so much screaming, I know it’s all in my head but that’s worse, I can’t shut it out.
The mist disperses, I can breathe again, the unending scream in my head is silenced, my eyes open. The floor is painted scarlet with blood, so much blood, acrid, fresh, red. None of it is mine.
Yellow
My job is not one of the easiest, but it’s can be the most rewarding thing I’ve ever done. Today, I walk around the room picking up the same things I have for the past month, some crumbled up paper, a thrown away spoon. Collecting more items, I walk to the kitchen to break off a banana from a bunch that sits in its bowl, open up the fridge and pick out a luscious lemon. Hands full, I weave my way back to my seat and spread my haul out on the table before me. “Okay come on,” I say to the blank face opposite me for the 27th day in a row. “What colour is this?”
My job is frustrating, at best, harrowing and hopeless at worst,to nurse mental patients is hopeless but some days are worth the months I spend in repetition. Today, the vacant eyes suddenly sparkle, he points at the banana and finally, finally replies: Yellow.
Nov 27, 2011
Bombay Symphony.
Jul 10, 2011
Once upon a time
They came together, close, and for sometime they both forgot the million other things that existed in the world, million other things that make people think "I dont like this person" .. "Oh she is not my type.." Instead, it was perfect, they were perfect, and that's all there was to know about it.
Only soon, she forgot it, and then he forgot it too. Memories come back only in bits and pieces.
Maybe soon everything will be erased, but i still hope they will always carry their pieces of it, so that nothing is ever lost, when they were just few miles away from infinity and everything was just ..... perfect.
Mar 29, 2011
Memories
It was raining.
Smoke winds through the raindrops, dispersing into mist.
He kept looking ahead.
And then he bends down and puts his black fountain pen to white paper kept in his lap. Covering it with his own head to save it from the rain.
Stringing lines together like beads, thoughts flow in black inky veins from head to hand to black pen to black ink on white paper.Shapes curling out to fill a page,mind, soul and memories laid bare on paper.
He picks up the sheet and watches as raindrops distorts memories, never to be like before, as this all changes to something nobody can recognize.
He looks at the paper until the picture on the paper changes to something even he cant recognize.
He brings the cigarette to his lips and leans back and lets the smoke curl away into the rain.
Jan 22, 2011
Beginning
Oct 5, 2010
Sleep
Jul 20, 2010
True Joke
She sighed melodramtically " And now you will never fall in love again, brother."
He grinned and said, " On the contrary, I plan to fall in love more and more often now. True love is a joke and I am a funny guy."
Jun 28, 2010
What ?
I think i should blog again.
This distance that I have made, i should really fill it back.
Soon. I am going to write something soon.
May 24, 2010
Noise
To an outsider we'd be as refreshing and intangible as a song or a symphony. Some of you may listen. Fewer still, will wonder what holds us together. And it might even be possible someday that one more finds his place within us. After all, how did we find each other? Floating through the noise, something caught on and made sense and stuck around. I still believe that we're all noise though. To much of each other and you'll hear it.
Apr 28, 2010
Yeats. Chapter 7.
Yeats. Chapter 6
Yeats. Chapter 5
Since her wedding and his departure were roughly a week apart, he dropped by to her on the day before he was leaving from Bombay harbour on a ship called Patience, which would briefly berth at Singapore on its way to Dublin. They sat at the back of the house, where after the tailor birds hushed their song, he promised to send her a wedding present from Dublin. She nodded. Somehow she didnt seem all that keyed up about her own nupitals. She touched the earth on which they were sitting. This, she remembered, is where she had painted him. This was where they had discovered a wry, invincible affinity for each other. Could she have ever become the artist she was today if he hadn't sat for her with heart-melting patience? As he was telling her something, she interrupted him with a sigh of ineffable regret: "Some days I'd give my arm to start over. Clean slate and all. I only want to be safe. I only want to be safe. How did we go so askance ? And wham into the path of other people's violations. Only to get blown into pieces that'll need several lifetimes to collect"
Yeats Chapter 4
Years passed. Slowly. Fast.Three, Four or five I cant say. Depends on how you percieve them. Nothing much changed.
Yeats. Chapter 3.
Yeats Chapter 2.
Yeats
"That is where you live !?"
"Yes, with my mother.",he replied hesitantly
Before we grow old and die
Apr 19, 2010
Oh! She knows how to play Counter strike :P
* Is it your birthday ? No, Then this post is not for you, go away*
Once upon a time, there was this little boy ( Oh he still is) , who lived near a jungle. Jungle would always fascinate him, but he was not allowed to go down there. Once he saw some gypsies and some other people, dancing and playing with fire, and going into the jungle, he looked at those gypsies and silently followed them, he entered the dark jungle, thinking he has people with him and around him, but soon gypsies and everybody else disappeared, lost in the jungle. The boy was scared, but he kept looking into the jungle,wandering inside, deeper and soon he met her, who was also lost in the jungle, the same way boy was lost. She was a bit younger than him, but oh was she sweet ? Sweetest ever :). No they didnt fall in romantic love, No they didnt get married, but yes they held each others hand, they guided each other, she was always close and near to him whenever he was scared or felt lonely, and he always tried to be there for her as well. They sang songs together, they played together, and yes they promised never to leave each other. They were best friends. They are still in that jungle, but now the jungle is not that scary. It gets dark at times, but they know how to get through it, morning comes, and they know they are there for each other.
Happy Birthday Sweetheart :) A very very Happy Birthday :)
We chased our pleasures here
Dug our treasures there
But can you still recall
The time we cried
We broke through to the other side.
Apr 14, 2010
:D
I always came on this page when i was sad, upset, lost, but today i have remembered this page in the moment of my extreme happiness. Yes, I am happy today, and not just happy, very very happy.
Reason of happiness will be posted in sometime. :D
Apr 11, 2010
I am looking for something, which has already found me.
I cant explain what i felt, after a dormancy of 2-3 years, few days back i had this sudden urge to sketch, it was so urgent and violent, that it was absolutely necessary for me to sketch. I had thrown my sketching set from third floor 2-3 years ago, and tired in absence of pencils i resorted to pen, i tried looking for black pen, but found none, and in the end, i took a blue point pen and started drawing on an A4 paper, within minutes of drawing, paper gave up, and it was torn by harsh and cruel strokes of pen ( or my hand ), i felt lost, i planned to go out and bring pencils and paper at once, but then i realized its 2 or 3 in the night..
That image is still fresh in my mind, but i dont know if it will ever come to the paper again, may be the moment has passed. I dont know. I had never predicted such a moment will come back again, so I dont know.
Tired and hopeless i started looking at my previous sketches, after a long time, and this sketch caught my attention, this particular sketch which i had made long ago, it was so perfect at that time for the situation, for what i was feeling in those days, yet for some reasons i didnt show it to a lot of people ( except few , some of those really close, some of them who could actually understand it ) ( for the same reason, that sketch was never posted on this page ) , and as i looked at it, i felt something
it was like i had not made that sketch for what i was feeling that day, but for today.. it made more sense now, i cant explain, its like making a painting years ago, only to understand its meaning years later. all these years, it was wings sequel, now i wish to rename it as
where she belongs ?
May be i am breaking the chain or series of wings, but I dont care. They are always about what I feel or think. Its always about me, these sketches are one place where I dont compromise at all
Where she belongs ?